A break from familiarity

So i hit day 70 tomorrow. Its exciting. I guess at the start of this break from alcohol I thought I would lose a bit more weight and I haven’t lost as much as I had hoped but as usual there is still time. 

I had a look at my diet and I think there are changes I can make. I seem to live a lot of the time on chocolate and sweets. I make fantastic healthy meals which taste great  but in between those meal I munch on little bits of chocolate and gummy things along with cake, as cake is amazing. So anyway yesterday I watched a great insightful film called Fat Sick and Nearly Dead, if you’ve not seen it I can highly recommend it if you have an open mind and are willing to put aside thoughts on alternative diet and healing. 

I love this kind of thing and am instantly drawn in to the hype. So I thought I would engage in a 5 day juice fast. I have a nice juicer now and today I bought a lot, and I mean a lot of vegetables and fruit today and Im getting ready to start tomorrow.

My highest weight was 15st (210lbs) at the moment i am 13st 2 (184lbs) which has fallen from 14st 6 which is 18lbs lost since last June from dieting, lack of alcohol, and cycling almost everywhere. So my goal is to get back to 12st and so I am hoping this will kick start a few pounds, and as you are not allowed to drink alcohol on the diet I figured now would be a good time to try it. now I have been blogging for a few months I thought hey why not write about it each day as its good to look back on things and I’ve often found that input and support is always helpful. So here goes. 

Day 70 tomorrow and by day 75 i hope to be shinning like a star with glowing skin. Hope everyone else is doing well

 

Falafel butternut squash and nutmeg burger and home made ginger beer

So I’m siting in a crowded bar type place but its really beautiful. A nice ambient European style tapas bar restaurant.

Is Friday night and I’m off out for some tasty food and a few drinks. The menu here is split decided half vegetarian half meat eaters. What’s better is the drinks menu is a few bottled beers and then a gazillion different teas and coffees and lots more fresh juices mixers and home made drinks. As the title says I’m having the falafel burger and ginger beer. Dave is having a jambalaya and a guest ale. I was commented on recently that the new improved alcohol free me is much better. I am calmer and more consistent mood wise. I am more predictable and friendly. This is all good news to me. Just to note, I have seen the desert menu too and the chocolate brownies are jumping out at me.

So tonight is my only night out this weekend as I am working the other days. I am celebrating 50 days sober although its not official till Sunday but it feels like I am turning a corner. I few unexpected comments are arising. Things I didn’t expect like tonight Dave says, if you do a hundred days it won’t be worth starting again. Now when I first quit I expected him to be counting down the days to me starting again so we could go out and enjoy ourselves but I’m finding we are going out and enjoying ourselves more often anyway. The other thing that’s crept in to my head is the longer I go without it the more I sort of fear a hangover. I used to suffer with anxiety when hungover and I would spend all day wit clenched fists eating excessive amounts of food and longing for more sleep. The more I think about it the less I want to go back to that lifestyle. I expected myself initially to be strong but then wane as I slowly slid back to longing for my old friend alcohol. I’m not feeling a super power or anything but I am feeling quietly smug. Tonight is lovely so far and if the food is good I think I will be coming back. Tonight I celebrate almost 50 days sober (48) happy weekend to you all.
And my food has just arrived. So have a picture….